A New Adventure

                Comfort.

                Warmth.

                A feeling of peace and security.

                An occasional jolt that wakes me from a dream of more comfort and warmth.

                That is me.

                And I am happy.

                A warm flow of nutrition infuses me with a sense of renewed peace, and my stomach grows.

                I realize that there are flashes coming across my face that I don’t understand. But they are not frightening.

                Liquid oozes about my form, and I enjoy the feel of it.

                My hand touches something on my face that points out; it has two holes. I wonder their use?

                Everything seems to have one here.

                Last week, I found out that two strong hard elongations from the bottom of my stomach seem to allow me to push off from one spot in my place of warmth, to another.

                It’s hard to describe.

                But there’s so much to explore!

                When I am not enjoying rest and flow of energy into my stomach, I’m exploring!

                Oh- something happened yesterday.

                I found out that the two bumps attached to the sides of my face experience something so unique that the other parts of me do not.

                It’s hard to explain, but it’s almost like vibrations in another dimension. Sometimes it is like the beating of my heart, but as if the beating doesn’t stop in intervals. It’s like my swimming in the ooze; it goes up at times, and down at others. Other times, it’s so faint, I can barely feel it.

                I don’t know that I’m feeling it, or if it’s something else.

                Like I said, it’s like another dimension.

                One more thing; I found a sucking device inside my face! It’s amazing…I can put things in it! I did it twenty minutes ago with something that’s elongated from the space between my head and stomach.

                The texture was an experience like none other. It was bumpy and soft. But I didn’t want to suck too hard. It seemed to cause a feeling that was not comfortable at all.

                I can’t wait to experience more of whatever there is to happen.

                Each bit of it all seems so much more exciting than the last!
                I resolve to sit back, relax, and let what’s going to happen, happen.

                Hm…maybe a nap is called for?

                Consciousness begins to leave me.

                I start drifting off and dreaming about more surprises.

                About the comfort.

                The warmth.

                The peace.

                The security.

                And of course, more discoveries.

                Usually, a jolt wakes me.

                But sometimes, that doesn’t happen.

                And I get to be wrapped for an even longer time in that amazing feeling.

                But wait.

Wait.

Something’s going on.

                Something.

                Something.

                I instantly feel it.

                How?

                Don’t ask me.

                I don’t know.

                But I know something’s up.

                A new adventure!

                My place of comfort seems a little squished.

                Maybe that’s what it is…

                No.

                The ooze.

                That’s it.

                It’s dryer.

                The ooze is starting to flow in a queer direction.

                This isn’t normal.

                My heart skips a beat.

                A new adventure!  

                I’ve never been past this place of comfort; perhaps my time is finally come! I have often wondered since I’ve been here whether there is any other place.

                Maybe…just maybe….if I follow the ooze, I will find it!

                I resolve to allow myself to go with the flow of the liquid surrounding me.

                I realize there is a new sensation coming over me.

                Guess what? It’s another absolutely new one!

                It’s not warmth. It’s something else.

                And it makes my frame jitter a bit.

                I’m not sure I like it.

                But I’m for any new fun thing.

                My nerves are reacting a little, but that’s ok.

                I just want a new adventure.

                No pain, no gain, right?

                Besides, everything here so far has been great; what reason do I have to look back now?

                My heart skips another beat as the feeling intensifies.

                And there is that vibration.

                Only this time, it is so strong, I’m shaking heavily.

                And you know how I told you I found out I have a suction device in my face?

                Well, guess what?

                I’m feeling something like that now!

                Only, it’s actually coming from wherever that new sensation is also coming. That sensation that is not warm.

                It intensifies.

                I’m not so sure about this.

                It seems like something big is going on.

                The most movement I’ve seen here has been little things, and I’m a little nervous to be feeling and sensing so much at once.

                Something shocks me.

                It’s not warm and smooth, like the other things here.

                How can I describe what I don’t know for you?

                It starts to push into one of my elongations….actually clamps on it and pulls it.

                Wait a minute…

                This doesn’t feel right anymore.

                Oh well.

                We’ll keep going along with it.

                I think it’s ok.

                It doesn’t go away.

                It starts putting pressure on the elongation.

                My flow to that area, which I have been sensing in wonderful vibrancy, seems to have a new sensation.

                Sharp.

                Not comfortable.

                The feeling intensifies.

                There is another pull.

                My consciousness is teetering.

                My form starts to quake.

                Something may actually be wrong.

                But I know it will stop.

                I’m going on my new adventure…

                Suddenly, something bursts on and inside of me.

                It’s terrible.

                I can’t explain what’s happening.

                But I know I’m experiencing something new on my suction device, and I’m not liking it.

                Something is touching it, and it’s a liquid.

                But it’s not the ooze.

                It’s thick.

                And the holes in my face seem to be filled with its sensation in a forceful manner.

                It feels unlike anything else here.

                Intoxicating.

                Unsafe?

                Maybe that’s the word.

                Not comfortable.

                But I’ve got to push through this to get to the most wonderful place.

                A feeling of loss overwhelms my little habitat.

                I become aware that my elongation is no longer there.

                And then, I start to feel a tug and awful pull on my other elongation.

                Then one of the ones near my stomach…

Then the other.

No! What is going on?

Who is doing this, and why?

Where is my world of comfort and safety?

                I try not to panic as I consider what this could mean for my new adventure.

                Maybe I don’t need those elongations wherever this new one takes me.

                All the same, the throbbing, and the feeling of that growing thick liquid will not go away…

                God, please at least just let the throbbing go away…

                My prayer goes unheard.

                Something reaches in and grabs at my stomach.

                I feel that my insides are churning, twisting and mixing with that liquid.

                It seems I’m getting squeezed and grabbed- then grabbed, and squeezed again.

                I hate that liquid. Why can’t it just be like the ooze? Comforting, warm, encouraging. Something where I can nap?

                My senses are becoming overwhelmed…and this pressure is awful.

                I try to keep my chin up.

                Because there’s a new feeling.

                It’s a flow.

                And I like it. It’s almost comforting

                I sense it!

                It’s the new place!

                The place I am wanting to go!

                I almost feel that this is the moment for which I was made.

                I get ready to go with the flow.

                Maybe all the discomfort will go away now.

                Maybe this next place will be even better than the first; wouldn’t that be exciting?

                I wonder what lies ahead for me!

                Looks like there’s hope yet!

                A new adventure!

Clamp. 

                Something clamps at me.

                A pressure tighter and more uncomfortable than anything I have ever felt knocks upon me.

                I don’t know what just happened.

                But that suction.

               And now….there

is…..

                P-ain….

                A….new……

*This short piece is dedicated to all the babies of America who never got a chance at their ‘new adventures’. One of the hugest blessings of family, is the formation and birth of a child to the husband and wife. This piece is inspired by the incredible pro- life movement from the ‘Unplanned’ movie that just came out. As a Christian, I want to stand for family, by also standing for the very heart and soul of that family; life!

If you feel led to comment, please do so in love for these babies, and not in hate for the decision makers in this process.

God bless,

Kelsie Ann Deschenes